Sooo... I think it might be time for me to update again, huh? yeah.. sooo things are strange right now... I am doing better in school and i think i am connecting with my friends better.

Let's see.... Last night was great until Tyler had to go home... Melody wouldn't let him stay out past like 930.... but on the bright side, atleast I got to see him.. My family seemed to like him... They only had good things to say about him... However once seeing my old time photo I had done with meag, they think now that's the reason Melody doesn't let him do a whole lot with me... However, I am to the point that I am tired of worrying about what people think of me... Its waaayyy toooo stressful to try to please everyone....

And... well... I am going to the movies today... yay! Tyler and david and meag and stacy are going and i think adam, alicia and alli might be too... dunno yet... but yeah today should be fun....

Last night we had my whole family over (mom's bday) and my uncle and his fiance came up from bama and then stayed the night, so they are here and i thik i need to go.... I will update later.... Luv Ya'll

p.s. I LOVE YOU TYLER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok soo yes i know this is two entries in one day, but o well... I have just read my bestfriend's site and saw something so totally true in her post... WE REALLY DON'T PAY MUCH ATTENTION TO THE PEOPLE AROUND US! I hope that I am not one of those people she was refering to,I definately don't want to be... I need to say that her post was entirely true... The youth group, and even those who are still visitors, are not aware as to what is going on in people's lives... even your best friend could be going through something and we are too blind or self-involved to see it...I am saying this b/c she pointed out in her post that someone you may know could very well be struggling with something very big such as: bulemia, anorexia, cutting, depression, thoughts of suicide, anxiety, and the list could keep on going... I think our society is trying to ignore and not believe that teenagers ahve more problems in life other than just what outfit to wear out or who to date or what we will be doing on a saturday night! I know how it feels to be overlooked and its not a good thing... I want to encourage ya'll, especially those who are commited and devoted christians, to reach out to people our age! I mean come on, what could it hurt to talk to someone who maybe you dont know or dont normally talk to... The main thing that could change a person's outlook on life is a friend... I may be offending people or bruising their precious egos, but guess what?!?!? I dont care! Get over it! I ahev been one of those people, and wuite recently in fact that was very self-concerned... Its not a good thing and you loose great relationships.... well i am gonna go

bye

p.s.- I LOVE MY SUNDROP!  

Hidey Ya'll!

Soo... I said I was gonna drop this but I was encouraged by friends to log on today and check out a few sites and my own, so I did... I have a lot to say today... even if no on see it! I need to say all this!

Ok... soo... last night was church! yay! I found church difficult, yet soothing.... I brought two friends...That was enjoyable, yet also hectic and nerve-wracking.... I mean, I loved the fact that I got them to come and that they enjoyed it, however, it was the one chance I might have had to talk to some people about somethings and just genuinely spend time with them... I am finding myself at a cross-roads, I want to be there for all of my friends, yet there is this select few that just dont seem to get me anymore...I need things to be normal, yet what is really and truely normal? I may never know...I have noticed that a person I consider a brother to me, is now so far away from me... It seems everyone else has gotten things to go right in their lives, but me... Things were really bumpy and complicated in my life last school year and especially this past summer, then it seemed as though I connnected with new people, made great friendships, was able to do things right, and even changed myself to head in a positive direction....Then I was in a church drama called the Judgement, and it felt like Satan attacked everyone close to me, including myself, in order to bring me down....I'll admit at times I was down, and so was everyone around me... Then things got really good...I was doin ok in school, friends' problems eased, i found someone very special in my life, and i even was happy for no apparent reason.... It seemed as though things were right where they should be....Now though, I'm not so sure... I have found it harder to focus on God, on friends and their neeeds, and even school... I seem to forget everything and I constantly stay sick and in a bad or weird mood.... I HATE THIS! I hate not being able to fully enjoy the time I do have with my boyfriend, seeing as how we never seem to have time to talk or be alone at all... I know people change, but why now? I know I am slowly driving him away... i cant talk

bye

Hey Ya'll

ok... soo it appears as though no one reads this stupid thing anymore so i think i am just gonna abandon it...

bye bye

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soo... things are weird....but good... and yet still a little weird... *ugh*

so here i am... confused...

i am happy b/c one of my friends finally got a clue and asked the girl out... i am sad because i am scared i will lose someone i love ALOT... i am worried for a friend who is still in love with someone who is only hurting and using her... i am happy b/c meag is spending the night tonight(great talks to occur i predict)... i am happy b/c someone i love will finally get what he wants soon... i am sad b/c i only see and talk to my love at church... i am scared we will never be truely close b/c of that and toher things... i am missing someone a lot... i am happy b/c me n mom are finally talking about things that  matter without yelling... i am worried that i am getting too far behind in school... i am worried that i care for someone too much too early...i am worried that i am not there for my friends enough...

*ugh*

i am really confused...

well, i am confused but i have finally learned to put my faith in God and not worry... so that is what i shall do... live, love, laugh, pray, and wait...

love ya'll!

p.s.- I LOVE MY SUNDROP!!!!